Fade to Black

It looms around me, the darkness.

It may be light outside,

But it’s bleak and lifeless within these four walls.

I feel claustrophobic,

The air quickly leaving my lungs.

My heart bursting to pieces about me.

He says he needs space,

That the timing wasn’t right for us.

I looked up at him,

My eyes brimming with hot salty tears,

And I just nodded.

I should have called him a fucking asshole.

I should have said more than just “okay.”

What the hell is wrong with me?

I got up from the table,

Took my things,

And walked out the door.

And here I sit in my house,

Staring blankly at the walls,

Listening to sad music.

I cry at the drop of a hat,

And anything gets me started.

I’m in a fog,

Numb to the outside world.

I’ve cut off all contact from friends and family.

Their words do not soothe me,

Nor will they make me feel better.

I feel as if all is lost.

Lost in some dark forest in a mythical land.

The fog closes in,

And the world fades to black.